It has been a week since I stopped working. For some reason, when I tell people this news I feel compelled to remind them how old I am. Just so they don't think I am giving up too soon, or being lazy, I guess but I think it is curious why I do that. Well, also, my income has shrunk by half and I think people will wonder, since I am so poor, why I don't just continue.
I think I will miss working and after a week have already figured out that I will need to make a new plan. My days so far have left me at odds. I can't seem to get my rhythm back and spend the days aimlessly instead of productively - and then, because I am Catholic, I feel guilty about that. Guilty about the snacking I'm doing, about sleeping too much, well - if you are Catholic you know what I mean.
In my working days, I did laundry on Sundays and if I missed doing laundry for some reason, I wouldn't do it again until the following Sunday. No mid-week laundry for me; it didn't even occur to me. It's like garbage day - if you miss it, there's always next week. I ate dinner at 5-ish. I went to bed between 9 and 10. I slept approximately 7 hours, with Penny waking me up at 5:00 a.m.
I've been trying to convince Penny that I no longer need to get up so early, but she isn't listening to me because I still go to bed between 9-10 p.m. When I get up in the morning, I feed her first and then make myself a cup of coffee. I sit and watch the news and knit. In the past I was in my pj's no later than 7 a.m. and then I would shower, do my hair, dress, makeup and wait for 8:45 to leave for work. Sometimes I would go back to knitting while I waited.
Now, I can eat whenever I want. It doesn't have to be at regular times; I can even combine meals if I want. I can have spaghetti at 9 p.m. if is suits me. But I won't. Yesterday I was, for some reason, falling asleep on the couch at 2:00 so I thought I was take a short nap. I woke up at 4:30. Then, when 9:00 rolled around, I was tired enough to go to bed and sleep until 5:00 this morning. I felt guilty about wasting an entire afternoon, but more to the point I wondered why I was so tired! Is this what retirement is going to be like for me? I think I need more to do. Maybe I will volunteer somewhere. More on that later.